“How so, Sergeant?”
“Your foot…” I continued: “You are missing several of your digits; you are, of course, aware that you are required to report to training daily with ALL of your equipment?” I joked.
The student grinned an obligatory grin, one that was frankly forced but offered as a gesture of respect, though he was sick of hearing jokes about his missing toes. I immediately regretted my pallid attempt at humor, but the damage was done. I’ll wake up in the middle of the night thinking of that one, dumbass!
Another Instructor who happened to be in earshot, Chuck “Chuckles” S., sidestepped and leaned in to say: “Hey, that Delta’s James Sudderth. He lost his toes in a chopper crash rescuing Kurt Muse from Modelo Prison in Panama. If you want to go ahead and just open your mouth a little wider, I’ll shove your foot in for ya.”
Have you ever been walking along in public and suddenly tripped over your own feet and tried to do that cool-guy recovery? You look back behind you at the imaginary thing that ‘made’ you trip with a pissed-off and pensive glare. You do that not for yourself, but rather for those that saw you, so they will understand that you actually had a Fred-Astaire-kind-of cool going on… but then some villain piece of unconscionable shit made you trip in front of all these nice people.
Well, I didn’t do any of that. I kicked off my shoes, grabbed a hose, and started squirting down UDT Vests, paddles, and whatever.
“Hey, James… sorry that that last remark; sometimes it’s like my mouth is falling down the stairs.”
“Heh-heh… yeah, don’t worry about it.” And so it went.
Over the years, it had been suggested to me time and again: “You should try out for Delta; you need to go to Delta…” Perhaps, but I wasn’t by far guilty of any pretense. I wasn’t fraught with typical excuses: “Well, I’ve got a bone in my leg, I just don’t want to live in Fayetteville, this trick knee of mine, allergy to sloped hills, my wife, my ankle, my toe… MY ASS!” I did not go for my one lone survivor reason: I did not believe that I could make it.
At the end of every course at the academy, the students and instructors get together and treat themselves to an end-of-course party. Everyone migrates back to Sergeants’ and officers’ status and just has a jolly ol’ time for a few hours over a cookout and brew-ha-has.
Invitation to try out for Delta Force Selection
“James Nelson Sudderth is headed my way with a beer in his hand, coming right at me, so I’ll step aside. Da-fuq, he intentionally turned and is still coming right at me. There is going to be a collision if he does not alter his course! And with James, well, you can bet there are going to be some knife-hand pointing to the chest.
“Sergeant Hand, I need to talk to you.” Just call me George, and sure.” James nudged me to walk about to the other side of the building, where there was privacy.
“It’s that shit I said about his foot… aw man, I knew it!! He’s going to twist me like Chubby Checker!”
And so James began: “George, you need to try out for Delta. Now, listen to me…” and he wiped the beer from his mouth, walked a quick two steps away to set his beer down on the academy building’s front porch, and then closed back with me. I totally got it, he was distancing the beer from the conversations in a it’s-not-the-beer-talking gesture, demonstrating his attempt at honesty.
“I tried to follow the Unit’s published train-up guidelines, and I am not capable of carrying the loads over the distances and times it indicates, James.”
“George forget about that paper; you really, you just have to go and try out.”
“How can I when I can’t pass the entry-level standards??”
“You can do it, George, if you just go and try. Trust me, it is a body experience; your body won’t be able to do it, but your mind will.”
I was nodding my head and pursing my lips, and thinking about how I met Delta’s Matthew Rierson, with whom I attended the basic dive CDQC years ago. “When are you coming over, George?” Matt matter of factly asked me, and expected an answer, but never got one.
Still nodding I finally: “I’m going to do it. But just one question…”
“Send it.” James challenged
“At the end of selection, do we really have to lift a 200-pound caldron of red-hot coals with just our forearms branding them with a lion and a dragon?”
“James flashed a genuine grin and kept his face pointed toward me so I could keep seeing his grin as he retrieved his beer. “Yes, yes you do, motherfucker, but you WILL do it!”
We walked back about the building to join the brothers in the throes of rejoicing for their accomplished six weeks of smoke on the water. James walked with his arm over my shoulder like a big brother. James was three months younger than I was.
I trained for selection my first time, grossly overdoing it, and wrecked myself; I had to wave off West “BY GOD” Virginia for the time. I regrouped and refit and trained my second time for selection, and by God, I made it through the course my first time around, flaming cauldron, scary tattoos and all… ok, no Kwai Chang Caine test of manhood. But it was definitely time for me to leave the temple and hang my hat down the spine.
Geo sends
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Editor’s Note: Let’s all do Geo a solid. Go out and buy his book and visit his website. I promise it’s all good stuff. — GDM
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