Many of us — civilians and military alike — have preconceived notions of special operators. They are thought to be invincible, tough, gritty, fearless…you name it. They are the Hollywood stars of the military community. And after a career of kicking in doors and taking down bad guys, they grab their ladies’ hands, jump on a horse and ride off into the sunset to live happily ever after.

Does that sound about right? Maybe. But I can tell you about a case that was not so glamorous: that of retired Delta Force Command Sergeant Major Tom Satterly. There was no riding off into the sunset; there were no parades — only the internal struggle and scars left behind.

Although Tom led a brilliant career and the accolades of his heroism could fill entire notebooks, none of that mattered when he hit rock bottom. In fact, it played a role in his near demise.

In an exclusive interview, SOFREP sat down with Tom to talk about his career and personal life during and after military service in one of the world’s most elite units. Among the topics of discussion was his book All Secure: A Special Operations Soldier’s Fight to Survive on the Battlefield and the Homefront, his participation in the Battle of Mogadishu, the hunt for Iraq’s “deck of cards,” and the mental anguish that nearly led him to suicide.