(for Small Daughter and GeoV)

It has been suggested, that, if, you could convince yourself that you were already dead, the torment of dying wouldn’t bother you (as much). I already know what it’s like to be dead, having been dead before: there isn’t shit over there on the other side; no light, no tunnel, no rapture or dancing, lemonade or servings of German chocolate cake… just a nagging dread that some fuck-head is going to come grab you from it, and bring you back to hell. That is just how it is to be stung by the Soldier’s Heart.

When a father loses his young children, when he has them taken away, he’s doesn’t have to remind himself that they are gone, for nothing else exists but the loss of his children. The world becomes a missing 14-year-old girl, and an 11-year-old boy… except the boy is 12 now; 12 already and his Dad has already lost track?