I am a former Army Ranger, military contractor, and survivor of the September 11, 2012 terrorist attack in Benghazi, Libya.

For 13 hours that night, my teammates and I did everything in our power to save American lives. Two of us didn’t make it home. Neither did Ambassador Christopher Stevens or Sean Smith. For some reason that I’ll never understand, I did.

But several months after being home, I hit rock bottom and started to have serious thoughts about taking my own life.

We were left behind, plain and simple, and I had lost complete faith in our leaders.